May 27, 2015

Boredom.

An absolutely bored wife stared right across the table. Her husband was still fingering the phone. An affair? She wondered. No. He is too clean for that. But all these apps, old friends, football.

"I will just use the restroom and come back." She nodded.
He came back to the phone.

"Do you have 100 rs?" She took the money and gave it.
He walked out and bought cigarettes. Came back again to the phone.

Well, she kept staring. Not knowing where this would end, or begin even. Tears hurried to flow down, but she controlled them. That heart ache and tightness was back. This was an everyday affair. No conversations. Even if there were, it had stopped exciting either of them. She had devotedly followed football for his sake. Listened to new genres of music. Read politics and developed viewpoints on subjects that would interest him. But it seemed inadequate. He went back to the phone.

Boredom crept in, and that emptiness was back again. The heartache increased. She felt it would explode and pieces of her grief would scatter around. No one would pick it up. No one would even know.

May 08, 2015

The Snuggle

At 3:30 pm, the bell rang and I jumped up thinking, he is home early. He is home early because I told him I was unwell again. He really cares.

I flung myself at him. And loved that musky smell that came from him. All I wanted now was to snuggle and go back to sleep.

These nostrils were bothering me, too much blocked like Whitefield road on a Monday. Urgh! Why do I bother now. He is here, and well the snuggle is to be looked forward to.

He did come over to the bed. Gave me his usual dose of kisses. Then said, "the match is at 4:30..."

Oh! Oh! Well. Ok.

Life is not fair always. It's ok. It would be ok.