Name

I wish I could put a name to what I feel.

It is love, but not the one that needs you by flesh.

It is need, but not the one that clings and is chaotic.

It is peace, that feeling you bring to me every time.

It is madness, the twinkle in your eyes, and that smile.

It is friendship, beyond ages, that could describe. 

It is laughter, that surrounds me all the time.

It is warmth, like a blanket that I could shroud myself in.

It is hope, that I could long and look forward to.

I wish I could put a name to what I feel. 

And call you only by that name in the lives to come.

Today

Today is not what I would call a boring day.

Today is a day that I feel conquered by emotions - which is usually a sign that the monthly shedding of a bloody layer is due.

Today, also happens to be the day I decided finally to keep my promise to myself and just write. To satisfy a craving, a hunger to yell out loud. It has been a nagging thought in my head to do what brings me happiness - even if it means drinking tea. Strong, flavored, which could transport me to the green luscious minty cold mountains of Nilgiris.

Today, is the day I felt jealous of a friend who converted an old run down bungalow, into a rustic hotel of sorts, and lives there with his girlfriend.

Today, is the day I had resentment in my heart and my brain for a change agreed to the resentment - towards someone who spoiled my birthday. I should have been angry then - instead I had to apologize. Was it really so bad?

Is it just today?
Is it me being very self-centered, and thinking only of me?
Is it true that I am hiding my deepest secrets within myself?

Yes, it is true.

I have my deep dark secrets. But let them rest, in peace, within those gallows that are built deep within me.